Rage
5 am – up with my mind running at 100 mph. Filled with ideas – things I want to accomplish for clients, and things I want to write about for my blogs and others’. Wrote out a great piece that’s been formulating in my head for a while called “Business – Why It Starts And Ends With The Numbers”
7 am – time to get in the shower and go walk the dogs. Then it’s off to a client for some fun with #’s!!!
10 am – I pulled into the UPS store to overnight a check to someone, now running late. As I am pulling in I received an e-mail that caught me completely off guard. This had been a challenging week overall but now this just topped it. Every once in a while even in adult life we encounter a bully. That is exactly what I am dealing with here and I have to treat is as such, but man, what a weird week this has been! At the same time the client I was on my way to see calls and tells me no one’s in the office. I went home to deal with the e-mail I had just received. First a call to my attorney to find the most appropriate course of action. Then a call to my sponsor to work out how to get out of the sheer rage I was experiencing. I have not experienced rage like that since I was a kid. The things I wanted to do to this guy. Thank G-d I have spiritual tools in my life. Actually he should be thanking G-d that I didn’t act out the things I wanted to. Then it hit me. I have one G-d and many lives. This guy has no G-d in his life and only one life to live. I prayed for him and asked G-d to help him find whatever peace he needs in his life to make him feel better because clearly this is an angry person – an unhappy person. After coming to terms with this and meditating for a bit I was not only calm. I was lucid. I called my sponsor back to thank him for the guidance. I was now thankful that I had this experience to show me how powerful a spiritual experience can be. In 1/2 hour I was out of the rage and thankful again for the life I have today. I was now also calm enough to craft a professional and emotionless response based on the direction my attorney gave me. This is what I mean when I talk about how important it is to have advisers in my life in each area. In this case I needed two – the spiritual one so I didn’t kill this guy, and the legal one. I never do anything alone. This is SO important I can’t stress it enough. Another thing that hit me was that I have the best attorney below and above the sun. I have a power within me that is infinitely greater than any obstacle that will ever be placed in front of me.
At this point I decided to take the day off. I needed it. I was drained, but there’s more that I learned here that is worth sharing. Getting angry drains us – this is not new information, but when I find a solution that helps me get and stay calm, it conserves energy. Accordingly I will have more energy overall as I learn to handle things this way more and more. The correct solution to seek when I am angry winds up having nothing to do with the person I am angry at. It is a matter for me to take up directly with G-d. It works – it worked for me today!
I took off and got a haircut, ran an errand for my wife and then I remembered that a good friend from years back has come out and asked me to help her with all of her personal and business financial affairs and she had e-mailed to let me know all of the files were ready. I went to her home and we had a GREAT talk. I was really spiritually centered once again by the time I left her house and I was also exhausted. So I headed home with a stop at Starbucks. Called the wife to see if she wanted anything. She said no but she did want me to come right home and help her with a photo album she was putting together for her sister. It was nice – I got to spend some time with my wife. Now I am going to handle something long overdue – I need to get the recording of my last live webinar up in my shopping cart!
7:30 pm – I think that does it for today.
Have a great weekend!
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